| Like every year, summer is starting to become very (hmm, what's that word?) boring.. this is the third day into summer vacation and yet, I have my lazy arse at home because my father refuses to re-sign me for YMCA membership, absurd isn't it? Everything has been the same lately, nothing has really changed..But first off, let me recap off finals... Chemistry, I barely made it, I think I got a C for the final and just got a 80.1 for the semester, English, whole class contributed and I think we scored on that one, History, don' even get me started on that, we had groups... and I was in rachel and wilson's group... when I found an answer, rachel goes "ooh i got it already" lol... basically rachel and wilson took the test.. haha.. for PE I ran an incredibly fast 5:42 mile. this year went from 6:30, 6:47, then finally 5:42... major difference huh? hmm... I'm glad that's over with..
Back to summer, I'm just waiting for my girlfriend to finish her finals next week then maybe we can work something out. I'm dying to see her again. We're going for our second month right now, things are going pretty swell but there's just some things that we aren't truthful with each other yet. It's tough when I wanna tell her something like those three words and other stuff but I can't cause I know if I do, she wouldn't feel the same, or at least just yet or i dont know!! err.. I don't know how to explain. We have this little barrier... Just one more layer to go before we can fully trust each other, hmmm or is it that she cant trust me? dunno? sigh I just want us to be able to talk about everything, ie she lets me know everything, I let her know everything but at the same time, our blah for each other is strong.. if only she knew how I really felt... but I don't think nows the right time... like talib kweli says, "I don't care what people, as long as you and me ok, cause i never been in love before, all of this is new to me, this aint what im used to see, cause I never been in love before... " hehe.. one day............. havent updated in a while...
finding a real job sucks btw... you have to be hired in order to be happy... haha |